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[Dec. 31st, 2004|01:39 am] |
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It's nice to have an old friend back, but it's akward to see an old boyfriend. Even if we look comfortable... looks may be deceiving.
xmas |
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[Dec. 31st, 2004|12:16 am] |
gay men love to laugh with a loud and festive cackle so everyone will turn around and come to light of their fabulous-ness and realize that they are being graced by their presence and take notice of the elaborate shimmer that falls from them as they flick their wrists and toss their aveda washed hair.
Oh yes life in Florida is so sparkly.
I miss going to parties in austin. Tallahassee has the most speeders in N. fl so there's 14564212454 cops here and it's ridiculous. Everyone loves jesus more than air so they are too scared to do anything like have fun. Hear no evil, Speak no evil, See no evil... the fucking slogan here.
My god what does a girl have to do to have fun up in this trailer park?
Party at my house tomorrow, totally WRONG location. We're having a bartender that looks like a male stripper... and he's really cocky too. AHHH i want to get drunk and go to a real party, not mine.
this concludes my upbeat to the minute news flash 411 update
goodnight ladies and gentlemen
** i don't live in a trailer park |
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[Dec. 31st, 2004|12:08 am] |
Milkshake by Kelis |
"My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard
And they're like, it's better than yours
Damn right it's better than yours
I could teach you
But I have to charge"
You can work it! And you started a new trend or two in 2004!
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[Dec. 4th, 2004|02:53 pm] |
I'm so sick of being anti-social. All I ever do is sit around the house and I ignore all of the phone calls from people less than my best friends. I don't know why I can't break out of this dismal stage, I just can't go out and have fun with people anymore. Christmas break is so soon but part of me just wants to stay home from florida by myself. I hate going to school and trying to act happy and I have let everything around me go.
My room has clothes scattered everywhere and I haven't cleaned the kitchen in way too long. My car is getting to be a second room, I just don't care about anything anymore. I don't even really watch what I eat, I usually really care about calories and all of that bullshit but none of it seems to matter.
I wish this would just end
I want to be the normal, social, happy, person that I should be.
I know I'll get over this eventually but it seems like i've fallen into a deep hole that's impossible to climb out of. |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2004|11:57 pm] |
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I just want to know why there are so many ignorant people in this world. Am I the only one that is becoming the least bit irritated at the gigantic mass of hopelessly stupid people?
Maybe to some, I'm one of them. But I know that there are some absolutely oblivious people at McCallum that are just horrendously DUMB.
Why can't some people speak real English? Many people are perfectly capable of using the English language correctly but they choose to be incredibly lazy and mumble all of these insignificant, derogatory terms in no real order, all in attempt to convey a purely thoughtless statement.
I can't stand being in non-honors classes mostly because of these personality types. I only have two regular classes and I dread them everyday. Maybe I'm being too critical, but I grew up around somewhat intellectual people and then coming face to face with these worthless and ignorant people makes me sick.
However, not nearly all of the people in regulars classes are like this. Sometimes there are only one or two of these types, but either way, it ruins the whole year in that class for me.
I hate it when someone points their nose to the ceiling and yells a collection of insignificant words at someone who is across the room and who isn't listening. I also can't stand it when someone yells "MRS!" at a teacher repeatedly to get her attention. It's so fucking disrespectful. |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2004|05:34 pm] |
What the hell am I waiting for,
I can't wait to get through this. |
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[Nov. 21st, 2004|09:07 pm] |
At the beginning of every week, I always find myself picking out all the things I'm going to do before Friday. It is the most annoying habit, as soon as the weekend starts, I start to think about my grades and how I can improve them, and what I can clean either in the house or in my car. Then, I fall asleep thinking about it and OMIGOD that's why I'm always late to practice on Monday morning! Halleluja!
Anyway, there's only two days of school this week so I don't know why I even care.
Cabaret was good, you guys performed very well.
WHY IS MY BROTHER ALWAYS IN THE FUCKING BATHROOM?? UGH! Grow up! Or get a girlfriend!
...ha
ewww. sorry...
It pisses me off though.
Things are going well, except I miss Jace very much. JACE! Why do you drive so much?! It scares me because you always drive across Georgia and you go really really really really really fast.
When Jace called me from his car, it was really sweet because that's major long distance charges for him and I could also hear his intake/exhaust thing on his car and it reminded me of being crazy with him over the summer... It was a good feeling :) I know we're going to be fine. I miss him so much, I just want to see him, it's been so long! He's impressed me with his patience and I hope he knows how much I care about him.
I can't believe I saw Miss Hinkle last night!! That's really exciting, we used to be such good friends at Lamar. I'm so excited about Thanksgiving! I'm going to Plano? What the hell is Plano? Anyway, this is the jumpiest post I've ever done. Ohh, one more jumpy thing...
Kelby has been SO supportive throughout the complicated times I've had. He's helped me with my classes and he's always there to hang out whenever I need someone to talk to. He's such an amazing person and he always amazes me with his genuine personality. Thank you Kelby! :)
I feel like I just gave a thank you speech...
it was just nice to be nominated.
Time to do that fucking science project, I really dislike Ms Spinosa. I don't care if she's Italian... I can't stand her.
I love you Jace Bradley
what do you say when you see your tv floating at night...? hehehehe (rhetorical... inside joke!) |
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[Nov. 20th, 2004|06:59 pm] |
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Knights lost to Alamo Heights 7-35. We played so well in the first part of the first quarter, I was very impressed with that.
State championships are over and so is the season, but it was so much fun while it lasted.
Kelby drove us home from San Antonio because my mom was "drunk", it was fun.
That's all for now! |
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[Nov. 16th, 2004|11:23 pm] |
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It's been raining for a really long time. I'm going to go fall asleep listening to it. |
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[Nov. 9th, 2004|09:16 pm] |
Stupid Livejournal. I've been tempted to pour my heart out in this for weeks now. I'll finally give in since I can't bring myself to finish my history homework.
What's going on, hmmm. Jace and I are still together, Thursday will be our four month. :)
My car is chugging gas, in comparison to when it used to just politely drink it. It seems like I'm getting gas every couple of days. Maybe I'm driving a lot more than I used to.
My journals are always just a series of fragment sentences. Yes they are. I like 'em like that.
I miss Liz. LIZ!!! If you are reading this, come fucking save me. I miss having girl time, no offense to Kelby. I never thought I'd have a best friend that was a guy, it can get messy, but I'm avoiding that. Anyway, I miss Liz because she's blunt and completely honest. It just makes me laugh, that is why I am missing it so.
Kelby thinks I'm ignoring him because I don't want Jace to worry about me. Uh oh. How'd he figure that out so fast... oh, wait, because it's obvious. I wish there was a discreet way to make Jace happy without Kelby thinking that I hate him. KELBY IS JUST A FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!! OOOOOhmygod. I HATE the situation i'm in. I would love to make Jace happy b/c i'm not with Kelby, but seriously, Kelby is my best friend and I just can't do that to my friends. ON the other hand, I would be just as worried. But then there's Jaime, Jace's friend that's a girl. They've been doing everything together and I guess that's just sheer karma. But he makes jokes about dating her and how much he misses her, which really really really really bothers me.
I'm rambling. Whatever. Ahh, I can feel the stress pouring itself on to the keyboard... now I can kind of breathe, not totally though.
It'll all be just fine. No school on Thursday, thank GOD for those precious little soldiers. |
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[Sep. 30th, 2004|05:14 pm] |
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PARTY AT SHANA MICHEL'S HOUSE
FRIDAY NIGHT ((not saturday))
CALL HER FOR DETAILS
IT'LL BE FUN
BE THERE.
<3 G
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[Sep. 21st, 2004|10:01 pm] |
BAND JAMBOREE AND ALL-CITY WAS TONIGHT!!
It was a whole lotta fun. I had a great day, mostly because Kelby got me out of class for "yearbook interviews". Then we had lunch at Six Napkins, and i haven't been there since last year, so that was really fun. Chris Thacker and Gooch were there and along with some construction workers, haha. Seventh period I got out an extra 30 minutes early b/c of Jamboree and Kelby and I walked around again. We make stupid jokes and laugh about them for way too long.
Driving out to Jamboree was fun b/c I rode with Remy and we listened to the Casualties and we were yelling at people on Mopac, and driving waaaay to fast. There was a girl from Anderson in a new Beamer 3 series and she was like 17, so we made fun of her and she almost rear-ended Ryan's 7 series. Hahah she sucks.
When we got there, I was really jumpy and screaming about anything, just a little to excited to be there i guess. ...But Remy thought it was funny
I saw Ben and Jeremy Holland!!!!!!!!!! The jew twins!!!!!!!! I was soooo excited! I told Ben I was moving and he was pissed. He called me and was like, we have to talk about this moving to Florida thing!!
Oh! I'm going to be a madrachim this year!! (Sunday school teacher helper...?) But it pays SO well. Can't wait!
I got a salad from Central Market and it was awesome.
I really want to call Jace but he's not home yet... :-/
Love you guys! |
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[Sep. 18th, 2004|05:25 pm] |
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Thankfully, the past hurricane was not as bad as we predicted in our area. Here are some compare and contrast pictures of hurricanes Frances and Ivan from my beach house. Courtesy of my Dad and Nick.
And dear Nick M., there are no pictures of the singlewide ;-) sorry to dissapoint you.
Alligator Point, Florida
I'm sorry to those who were caught between west Florida to Louisiana.
btw, I love you Jace! |
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[Sep. 16th, 2004|07:12 pm] |
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Ask Ryan or Sarah, I've been talking about that thing. I saw it at Nordstroms after All City dance practice and I fell for it. Haha. Whatever, I just had to get that out.
Anyway, today was a little dull, practice seemed longer than usual. Ryan's pep rally dance is starting to look pretty cute, we have never had a dance with axles, doubles, right and left splits, kick axle thing, toe-touches, and some other stuff, all in one. At least not for a team dance, expectations are rising....
I took a test in Ms Greer's during lunch and Blythe and Nick were in there and we started talking about my single wide beach house and how the hurricane probably killed it. Hah, it was great.
I had a longish conversation with my speech teacher about BMW's. Not the technical stuff but the aesthetics and why we love em. She has two, arrgh.
Jace and I have been happy and sad and happy again, many times through the past week. We've both had A LOT on our minds with school and everything. He was stressed out with tests and so was I. There's this suprise that he won't tell me about. I really really really really want to know. I'm so happy I have someone like him to talk to. The other night, he was out and I went to bed early so I didn't get the chance to call him. I went to bed feeling like my day wasn't complete, not talking to him before I went to bed made me a lil bit sad. But we talked the next morning so I was happy again. I think that maybe, just maybe, he might come to Austin again in October. That would be so great!! My mom and him have bonded behind my back, which is a bit creepy. (They talked on the phone today...) It's awesome though because now she totally adores him! I think it is really impressive that he wasn't intimidated by her and actually got to know her, that's pretty rare.
I am so worried about Jace finding other girls at GSU. But then again, I completely trust him and I think I'm more afraid of the girls finding him. He's totally trustworthy and cool about everything he does. I don't know how I got so lucky with him, he always calls and tells me everything that happend during the day, even the not so good stuff. When he tells me what he did, like went out with the frat guys and met up with girls at a game, ANY other guy and I would get really paranoid and want to know exactly what was going on. With Jace, I just don't worry as much. I usually have a really bad habit of hiding what I really feel, like jealousy, envy, getting paranoid, aggravated, or depressed. But now that I think about it, I'm not hiding my feelings from Jace, they just aren't there. And when they are there, they are not very strong. I know I can trust Jace, which is a big thing to do.
Trust is hard to gain and easy to lose
I love you Jace
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[Sep. 13th, 2004|07:00 pm] |
I've always wanted to do one of these...
1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? Gina Ann Conn
2. WHAT COLOR PANTS OR SHORTS ARE YOU WEARING? Blue soffes
3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Nothing
4. WHAT ARE THE LAST 4 DIGITS OF YOUR PHONE NUMBER? 9986
5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? I haven't eaten yet
6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Blue
7. WHAT IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? Cloudy and cool
8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My mom
9. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? Looks, but then personality is what really counts
10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? I stole it from Tesla, I like her.
11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? Tired!
12. FAVORITE DRINK? Diet Coke
13. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? Only IF i drank, Corona
14. FAVORITE SPORT(s)? track, dancing
15. HAIR COLOR? Blonde
16. EYE COLOR? Blue
17. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Not anymore
18. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES? Younger brother, 14, Philip
19. FAVORITE MONTH? June
20. FAVORITE FOOD? Seafood
21. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? I don't watch many so idk
22. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? December 26th
23. SUMMER OR WINTER? Summer definetly
24. HUGS OR KISSES? Kiss
25. RELATIONSHIPS OR CASUAL DATING? Relationships
26. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? Vanilla
27. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? Hmm
28. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? I'm getting one tomorrow, probably one by Nick Sparks because they're cheesy.
29. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE? Red light..
30. WHAT'S YOUR FAV. HOLIDAY? Hanukkah or Christmas, whatever religion i decide to practice that year.
31. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE SMELLS? Burberry Brit and Curve for men
32. FAVORITE CAR? My civic (hah, not.) BMW m3
33. ATTEND CHURCH? Yes
34. FAVORITE FLOWER? Gladiolas
35. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? One
36. CAN YOU JUGGLE? Kinda
37. FAVORITE DAY(s) OF THE WEEK? Friday
38. RED OR WHITE WINE? Red
39. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? Big party at my dad's and I got a car :)
40. DO YOU HAVE A DONOR CARD? No
41. WHAT ARE YOUR LIFETIME GOALS? To get a Masters in Business or Architecture and let it take me from there...
42. THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? Jace
43. WHAT SCARES YOU MOST? Paralysis (not just the physical kind, but just being unable to move, think, or any other restriction)
44. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK? Yes please
45. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Jace
46. LEAST LIKELY RESPOND? Don't know.
48. WHATS YOUR FAV. CANDY? I don't like candy
49. DO U SAY tOMATO OR TOMAHTO? Tomato, like normal people
50. what (a)r(e) some of your favorite shows on T.V? Don't watch TV, but probably will be the OC when it comes back on.
51. WHO iS YOUR ROLE-MODEL? My dad
Yaaay that was fun.
My family is freaking out because of hurrican Ivan. They'll be fine, I hope.
Philip beat up another kid today at football practice. That's my boy.
Band jamboree is tomorrow so no school for the All-City dance girls! Yay! Band practice was sooooo long today, we learned some more gross choreography.
Mary Habitzreider is funny as hell, I like her. We have about 3 inside jokes between us just from today.
I hope Jace is okay, he's been acting weird lately.
I AM MOVING TO FLORIDA IN DECEMBER, if you heard from someone else, it's true.
And I am definetly not moving there for Jace. All of you guys that thought that was the reason, that is degrading to me. :( I have better judgement than to move half way across the country for a new boyfriend. I'm moving in with my dad! I'm extremely excited but I'm going to miss all of you guys here soooo much.
Much love. |
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[Sep. 11th, 2004|03:26 pm] |
I just don't know what to do.
How can I pick up and leave, I want to but I don't.
I wish I was better at making decisions. If I knew what I want then I'd be a lot happier. But I think I do know exactly what I want. The problem is, I'm taking other people's feelings into consideration. Should I let other people's opinions change my decision or should I follow my heart?
And, if I think I'm following my heart, why does it feel uncomfortable?
However, staying would just bother me, it would be a missed opportunity
... or would it?
What if I don't like florida...
Is that even possible? I fucking grew up there, why wouldn't I like it? It's the small, eveyone-knows-everyone town that I've always wanted to go back to. Small yet glamorous in it's own little Tallahassee southern traditional way.
Is this a regular phase to go through that everyone faces once they've made a gigantic decision, kind of like a really really extreme buyers remorse?
THIS IS SO HARD |
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[Sep. 6th, 2004|09:52 pm] |
From the evening of September 2nd to the dusk of September 6th, 2004.
Jace and I were the happiest couple in Austin this weekend. We began our weekend by laying out under the stars and being absolute romantics. The next morning, I had zero hour and I felt sick so I called Jace to come pick me up (I actually was sick). He looked soooo good pulling up to McCallum, I was definetly excited to get out of that nasty school. We went to town lake, Mangia, and then home because I was definetly feeling bad. That afternoon was so incredible...
If I continue to tell every detail, I'll never ever finish. These are the things I can remember (not the highlights because the whole thing was just amazing)
-Barton Creek Mall with Marcus and Shana
-Hill Country views
-Evenings on Mount Bonnel x2
-Meeting two couples from Georgia coming to see their girlfriends in Austin :)
-Whataburger (Jace's first time there!)
-Taqueria Arandas
-Relaxing on the couch
-Burning out the Civic
-Replacing headlights on the Civic, now they have a whitish blue tint
-Shana's house
-The OASIS
-Jackie's house
-Chez Zee (suprise breakfast this morning!)
-South Congress festival
-Amy's ice cream
-Being woken up by a kiss from Jace
-Falling asleep in Jace's arms
The last two were my favorite, so I'm going to stop on that thought :)
Tonight Jace is flying back, into hurricane Frances. I'm really worried about him because as soon as he lands, he is driving down to GSU which is right underneath the hurricane. His tires are bald, his back bumper is missing (thus it fishtails), his alignment is bad, and I'm really concerned.
I want to move back to Tallahassee. Jace got me thinking about it, I'm not happy here really at all. I don't like Blue Brigade, I don't like McCallum, my neighborhood, the heat, the dryness, the stoners, the weirdness.. I'm not extremely close to anyone here either. Honestly just Liz and Shana.
I want to be back in my Tallahassee "sophisticated" bubble. I'm not dissing Austin, it's a beautiful city with so much culture; I just want the city and culture I was born in to.
I had a long talk with my mom about it and it is being considered... I don't want to wait another two years.
Jackie said this and I thought it was really sweet of her:
jammin yamin06: it just seems like jace is the perfect person for you
jammin yamin06: he takes care of you like you should be taken care of
Jace is amazing. He is so loyal and faithful, he cannot be dishonest and that is the absolute truth. In every category, he is perfect. Jace is kind, caring, funny, creative, loving, polite, truthful, honest, HOT, spontanious, extremely smart, and skilled in so many things. He says that once I figure out that I can find someone better then I'll leave him... I strongly believe it is the other way around. I love him. I am completely and totally serious when I say that.
I hope Jace makes it home safely tonight.
This weekend was perfect in every way. I will always remember it.
I miss you and love you Jace Bradley Harris! |
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[Aug. 31st, 2004|10:41 pm] |
I haven't updated this thing in forever!
I'm not dancing this friday @ the game because I can't. Jace will be in town but, really, i'm not dancing. Ahhh, i don't see why it's such a big deal, I ALWAYS dance friday nights and my throat still hurts from cheering at the Anderson game. Allison and I are def the most spirited for now, haha. But honestly, I would never ask to have Friday off unless I was sure that it was completely neccesary.
Today was eventful. I just got home. My school day was definetly lackluster, however afterwards was awesome. The sophomores and Samantha met in Honey's room along with Stephanie and I to make signs to decorate the guy's locker room. Meanwhile Allie and I decorated water bottles for the team. Being social officer is finally starting to become fun.
Afterwards I went to Tan Ect, of course. I swear, McCallum has this new tan nazi thing going on and it's not just me! Anyway, I talked to Shayan! That kid is awesome, he calls me Akbar Boro Joon. He's persian and... he won't really tell me why he calls me that, haha.
Then I went home and Blythe picked me up in her little acura... I love that cute lil p.o.s.! Hehe. We went to the County Line BBQ on 2222 and got up on all the cheerleader/blue brigade gossip. Yay! Haha, it was really fun. It was almost $40 just for the two of us... oops. It was so good though! She then dropped me off and I had to drive down to Congress Ave to pick up my brother from football practice which took an hour and a half :-(. He gets to play on Varsity against Texas Military Academy next week though!! That's pretty good for a freshman.
I got home, all is well. TWO MORE DAYS!! I liked how Craig says he's jealous of Jace, but i think he's just trying to get some. Haha. Isn't that how it works? I can't wait until Thursday or until Jace goes to lunch with me, or when he picks me up from school!! It's going to be the best weekend ever. I feel like a little kid before Christmas, I get really excited whenever my friends bring him up. I'm so glad we are working out this long distance relationship, Jace is definetly worth all of the trouble (not that there really is any). Jace is the ideal guy for me and I'm so glad I found him. He is amazing! I don't know why all of the other girls didn't grab him to keep in high school when they had the chance.
It's astounding that he's going to Georgia Southern, yet he doesn't party all the time. All of my other friend's boyfriends that are in their freshman year of college are partying their ass off. I feel pretty lucky that he is actually being totally loyal, even though I told him that he should take advantage of his freshman year at a party school. Haha, but he insists on staying clean. I love him!
I wrote a long one to make up for the absense. Be good yall. |
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